Today was a hard day

Today was one of my bad days.....I woke up and felt so sick to my tummy...I think I have been crying in my sleep again....I have been having lots of good days and well today wasn't anywhere close to being good. I cried on the way to school and between the two classes I had today and then on the way home.... I guess everything hit me today hes really gone and not just in the feild training. :cry:

I had to force myself to not just go back to bed and hope that I would wake up and he would still be here....I keep looking at my phone wishing that it would ring and be him telling me he is ok and then my worrying will end for the few seconds that I talk to him. I want to hear his voice....I want to hear from him telling me that he is ok but I know he can't because he is very busy but I don't know what to do anymore :cry: I feel so lost at the moment...

any tips? :cry:

Stay busy...

Im really weird.

I havent really cried (except for yesterday when my body/baby broke down because of the stress im going through.)

I feel emotion really weird.I dated a State Trooper so Im over the whole contact thing,and my husband has been underwaying since Jan. so the most Ive seen him is 45 days.

I dont wanna make things any harder on myself,so I just stay busy.Im moving back home...where I'll be with family and friends.I'll be working part time with kiddos.

I wish I could be of more assistance,girlie.

stay really busy, are there any support groups or meetings in your area? I know here they have a meeting every Wed. for the ladies to get together and chat, however I succeeded too well on keeping busy and I am always working that night lol, how bout any friends in the area? When hubby would deploy back when I was home my friends were a really good support system, and really good at keeping my mind off things, not so the case here, but what can you do right? I hope that you hear from him soon and that you can find a way to make it easier for yourself, and believe me I know we all have the good days and the bad days! Hopefully soon you will be having more good than bad though. :)

Try to find something physical to do with a friend. Go to a park and take a walk. Go work out. I've found that when I'm feeling really blue that if I do something physical, even if it's just walking aroung the mall with a friend for a few hours and talking anything and everything helps the most. Just sitting around and dwelling on the fact that he's not there just makes it worse.

sorry i had to get off last night, it was like 2 in the morning and i seriously was about to fall asleep on the phone!!!

i call you later :)

loves

I had a better day today and I notice that even if I am just playing a video game that does help...I am just living it one day at a time and been trying to get to sleep around the same time every night. Also reading my text books and doing homework has done wonders for keeping my mind busy and far away from stressing.

Thanks girls :] yall are amazing

Not a problem sweetie. That's what we're here for. If you're having trouble falling asleep, try reading or playing a game. I find that playing a game on my phone or reading a book helps me fall asleep when I'm having troubles. I'm glad you're feeling better. :P

i am so sorry you had a bad day but we all have them i had mine last night. dh has been gone for almost a month and it still hasnt hit me that he is gone. well he has been gone since jul,y but on deployment since aug. i wish it would be easier but its not and we are here for you if you need us even if you just want to write and email and cuss or just write i am crying or whatever makes you better, i am here keep your head up sweetie.

Thanks so much girls :]

I hope your doing better, if you need to talk please PM me!!